Walking on the Leading Edge #8- A Journey of Power, Passion & Peace

The Big Island of Hawaii is one of the few places in the world where I want to kiss the ground when I get off the airplane. I feel at home there. I am embraced, welcomed and resonate with the energy. I love the wild and diverse beauty and how big it is! All of the other Hawaiians islands can fit into the Big Island.  Though I have never lived there full time the weeks and months I did spend in the Summer and Fall of 2007 changed my life. My focus, direction and path shifted dramatically due to events and the deeper healing and revelations that occurred on the Big Island.

I was first called to the Big Island. I had to swim with the dolphins. Little did I know the call was more about dying to my old life and identity to uncover, discover and connect more with my authentic self.  The locals say that “Hawaii either embraces you or chews you up and spits you out.” The Hawaiian islands have embraced me since the first day of my arrival. Some of  this embrace had to do with my willingness to transform, release my old limiting beliefs, conditioned behaviors and worn out relationship patterns. The new space created a greater opening for my long buried Divine Essence to express. I have known many individuals who could not stay on Hawaii for more than a couple of weeks as it was too difficult and intense emotionally resulting in broken relationships, financial troubles, etc. I ended up staying for a couple of months and then kept coming back again and again over the next decade.  My intense Scorpio nature, commitment to my spiritual growth and desire to be free from my story and ego persona gave me the courage and stickability to stay in this raw and beautiful paradise. Being a runner all my life I finally stopped and faced myself. Over time like a ball of twine unravelling I discovered my deeper Truth & Integrity.

The Hawaiian legend of Pele, the Goddess of Fire, is alive on the Big Island of Hawaii and supported this transformational shift as did the powerful energy of Kilauea volcano that is active at Volcano National Park.  Pele’s story explains that “Like a volcano’s lava that creates new land, the goddess Pele reminds us that, even fiery eruptions and emotional upheavals are followed by new life and change. As an archetype Pele is a passionate and creative force that transforms and rebuilds the landscapes of our lives.”

A perfect explanation and metaphor for my life. In addition my Edgewalker qualities of passion & playfulness were essential as I navigated through this adventurous time of fiery, passionate transformation, powerful change and experiencing a more centered and peaceful existence. House and dog sitting by myself at my friend’s beautiful 12 acre Kohala Sanctuary in Hawi, the northern most point of the Big Island, was the perfect setting for this chapter in the school called my life!

**Lesson from Pele, Hawaiian Goddess of Fire (worth repeating):

“Like a volcano’s lava that creates new land, the goddess Pele reminds us that, even fiery eruptions and emotional upheavals are followed by new life and change. As an archetype Pele is a passionate and creative force that transforms and rebuilds the landscapes of our lives.”

Walking on the Leading Edge #7- Evolutionary Leaps of Faith Continue…

Surrendering to my future by letting go of my past, was exhilarating, exciting and scary at the same time. Decision-making has never been one of my strengths. For me life is a smorgasbord, the sampler platter. My personality type likes to keep options open so I can experience it all. However, I continue to learn and trust through trial and error life experience that focusing on one choice is deeper, richer and often more fulfilling.  I sometimes feel that saying no to a choice means losing something else. In reality saying no to one thing is an opening, a yes to another opportunity. Following my heart and listening to my intuitive knowing, my gut feeling and inner voice have always led me in the right direction. The challenge and discipline is to quiet and observe the mind that has it’s opinions, concerns, fears, what ifs?!

A heart centered journey connects the dots of Spirit, Divine co-creation and our own free will. Aligning my free will with my Divine will, my Higher, wiser Self  is what I was, and continue to commit to. Cultivating the EDGEWALKER qualities of Sensing the Future and Risk Taking are a powerful team in supporting me in “Aligning with the Divine”.

This awareness, drawing on my sense of adventure and allowing the signs of Spirit to guide me, supported me in taking the next step on my Edgewalker Journey. As I was sitting on the beach in beautiful Kauai in 2007 getting ready to fly back to the Big Island I still questioned if I was doing the right thing. Not knowing what was coming next was a big “leap of faith”.  It was difficult to ignore the signs – the open door invitation to return to the Big Island to visit my ohana (Hawaiian friends/family) and house sit for the Summer months on the beautiful Kohala sanctuary. I stepped into it willingly though with some reluctance, feeling gratitude for the grace and synchronicity that orchestrated my next step.

Being guided all the way with no specific plan but the one designed by the Universe, I stepped onto the “magic carpet” ride called “my life”, holding tight but with an open heart and mind. The adventure continues…

*Lessons:

*To make decisions guided by your intuition take time to quiet the mind, be the conscious observer, notice the mind chatter. Get grounded and connect with your body, your gut feeling.

*Have the courage to trust and make the commitment to honor what you feel, even if your mind disagrees or goes into fear. Say to the mind chatter Thank you for sharing” and turn your focus on your deeper knowing, heart and gut.

* Your life can be a “magic carpet” ride of Divine flow and direction, with ease and grace. It is a choice. Be open to letting go of the familiar. With curiosity, explore a new way for a new outcome. 

Walking on the Leading Edge #6- Delays, Detours, Deepening / Future to Past

Aloha! Welcome back to my Edgewalker blog and evolutionary leaps of faith! Thank you for your patience and joining me again on my journey. “Life is what happens when we are busy making other plans,” said the legendary John Lennon. Many of you have been following me since I began this blog many months ago. I had it all planned how and when I would write and organize my blog. However, I continue to learn the lesson that I/we are not in control and Divine Timing has a “Mind” of it’s own!

In April 2017 a major life event and transitions that were not planned resulted in my taking a 2 month break from my blog.  I am excited to share this future/present story with you now that will take us back to the past in my upcoming blog posts.

My big news is I got married on Maui April 1, 2017 to my love and best friend Italian artist Dario Campanile. We met April 6, 2012 at our mutual friend’s beach wedding on Maui. Five years later almost to the day we got “Mauied” on the same exact beach we met, with the same friend’s present. This was not planned and a last minute decision. Even though we have been together for 5 years and engaged for 2, when and where we would marry was never clear due to our traveling and life transitions. We waited together for the CEO moment, when it would be made Clear, Easy & Obvious for our sacred marriage. Synchronistically my Mother from NY was visiting us in Maui where we were living for the Winter months. At the same time the friends whose wedding we met at were visiting Maui from their home in California. Maui brought us together and we knew we wanted a small Hawaiian ceremony with those exact people present!

Dario and I have learned to trust the signs and realize there are no accidents. We took a leap of faith and knew the time was right for us to marry. So within a few short weeks every detail necessary to have a beautiful sunset wedding on Maui was handled with ease including the availability of Lei’ohu Ryder, the Hawaiian minister to facilitate our sacred ceremony. I always carried the intention in my heart since I began this Edgewalker journey in 2007 to meet my Divine Complement & Spiritual Partner.  The emotional, spiritual, mental and physical deepening and healing that I needed over the past 10 years to attract my husband was an evolution in how I love myself, my Higher Self and my intimate partner. This leap of faith brought me to the magical moment of spiritual union that was greater than I ever imagined.  Even being locked out of my computer due to a possible hacking during my Mexico honeymoon, transitioning to my married name Campanile and travels to mainland USA , supported me in being more present and available to love and be loved, to have the right partner and BE the right partner.

In blog post #7  next week I will continue to share my journey beginning in 2007 that led me to my Maui wedding 10 years later in 2017.  Mahalo (thank you) for joining me!  My heartfelt gratitude to the Universe for the Delays, Detours, and Deepening!

Lessons:

*Delays, Detours and Deepening support us in our Highest Good (regardless of how things may look and feel) if we only let go, trust, surrender, allow.

*Love of God/Universe, Love of Self, Love of Another/Others (in that order!)

*You are worth it! Believe, have faith. Remember every NO creates the space for a greater YES!